As usual, my spousal figure has inspired me to post on my blog. Lately, I have come to realize that the baby is going to be here very soon. For the past month I've been so worried about working to prevent preterm labor that I haven't been thinking about the actual will-be-here-before-I-know-it labor. I often joke and say I had to wait to consider to have kids until the many labors I have witnessed in the past became a faint memory, but as I get closer to the delivery date, I realize I remember the doozies and not the smooth labors as well.
At this point I'm trying to make those big decisions about the labor process - what am I comfortable with, how will I pursue pain management (if any), etc. I had always planned to get an epidural, but a congenital condition I had pretty much forgotten about may make this difficult. So - au naturale may be the way I'm going. And this makes me REALLY want to find a good childbirth class. Which I am discovering is a bit last minute. Oops.
In the second trimester, I remember reading these things saying I would really miss those days in the third trimester. I must admit I thought they were exaggerating. But I've realized they weren't. I have all sorts of weird changes in my body at this point. And it's gotten to the point where I look down at my abdomen and say, man that's huge! And it's supposed to get BIGGER? It's the point where I'm not as sure that baby is really going to fit on the way out, though I of course know that's silly on my part.
And I am wondering how our life is going to change when this child decides to make his appearance into the world. I have been taught a lot about the importance of infancy and attachment, and I hope I will be the "good-enough mother" my child needs.
So these are a few things I think about as my kiddo wakes me up throughout the night and saps my energy during the day. 8 months of pregnancy down. Not too many weeks to go.
